#21

[2:12am] I seriously shouldn't be blogging right now - I am tired; I am supposed to do work; I don't want to pon school later [because of chem tutorial]; I have mock GP later in the afternoon. Die.

This time round is another health issue - I'm getting old! Ohmygoodness. Eighteen years old, turning nineteen in less than 6 months, and then turn twenty in two years' time, and then another twenty years down the road I'm FORTY. Assuming I can live up till eighty years old, I have now lived near a quarter of my entire life already. So I was thinking about this the other day, and I thought about my life so far, and I guess I had not experience much about life, and the biggest accomplishment for me is probably learning to speak and walk. Eighteen years old, I'm not supposed to be old eh? But it turned out that my body is getting problematic like an elderly. Previously it was chest pain, and tcha you know what? It's not as disturbing now already~ :) maybe the controlled diet and little exercises are working out well. That, is previously. For now, I'm having problems with my back. When I twist to one side while sitting down, I strained this particular back muscle and it HURTS LIKE HELL. I can't move my back, all I can do is to maintain in that awkward position and rub that damn muscle and wait for it to be okay again. This happened twice within the past month already, not a very good sign for me.

The last body checkup in Sec 4 showed that my spine is not that straight, around 3 degrees curve I think. Earlier this year I also sort of strained my back due to heavy impact from landing while practising cheerleading, but I recovered rather soon [not a very serious problem, I just had to prevent straining my back]. Now the thing is, I think the reason for me to have a problematic back is due to the little incident I had when I was around ten years old - I fell from the top of a damn freaking high slide in M'sia [went to visit my grandfather and relatives] and 'POM!', I landed flat on my back, and until now I still remember vividly, that kind of impact, it is as if my organs were going to be detached by force at that instant. I couldn't speak at that moment, because I need to catch my breath and kind of like stabilise my lungs. Ha. And then after a while, things got better, I could stand up, but could not stand straight. I didn't see a doctor or whatsoever, all my mom did was leaning her back against my back, and then lift me up on her back while she lean down! Come to think of it, I can't believe I went through that. So everything ended with that and some rubbing of medicated oil. I wouldn't be surprised if my problems now are caused by that fall. What's worrying is that, I'm afraid that there might be other hidden problems. Hmm, but I think I not so suay la hor.

Oh heard from Jiamin that my 'You will get a heart attack if you don't exercise!' post is now influencing quite a few other people to start to keep fit. Haha. And yesterday (Saturday), I was supposed to swim with Jiamin, but it got too hazy and in the end we sinned by eating Macdonald's and spent half the time gossiping, talking rubbish like what we can do if we flunked A's, and then creating and drawing new styled pokemons (check out Jiamin's blog for the photos). Effective mugging time was greatly reduced, but it was fun! Bimbo jokes and disturbing stray cats at 2am is good for reducing stress. Haha.

I am sad at the fact that my GP tutor and her teaching skills are not to my liking. And if I was lucky to have a great teacher like Miss Kwan, just like how lucky Jiamin and ChunKiat are, I guess I might not worry that much about GP now. Ok it's pointless to say this now, but I just feel like complaining.

When I was twelve years old, I'm quite sure that I was an innocent girl leading a very simple life of studying, interacting with classmates, enjoying little gossips, playing five-stones [I'm good at it k! haha], and walking to Bedok Central to buy Bubble Tea with my bestie then. There were no such things as computer, mobile phone and internet at home. Maybe I can conclude that, even though I may not have many exciting memories of then, it was a happy life. I did not have distractions from computer/mobile/internet, and I guess that's part of what making my life happy. Right now I witness a twelve year old who wants/intends to move out from her house and stay away from whoever finds problems with her, and her dad even encourages her to do so. This, is causing not just her to be unhappy, but everyone around her to be sad too. But what is there to be done?

I sucks being the oldest child in the family.
I cried.