#53

Getting different kinds of negative emotions rushing up deep inside.
All of a sudden everyone's getting all so emotional about life and friends and relationships.
I just want to find somewhere to rant, or someone to rant to, but at this time, seems like I can rant to no one.
Oh yea all thanks to work and country duties whatsoever.
So typing any shit out on the keyboard seems the best thing I can do to calm down, rather than clenching my fist just now.
I don't know wtf is wrong with you, but I really cannot stand your presence, AND STOP SPREADING CIGARETTE SMOKE THROUGHOUT THE HOUSE AND GO GOD DAMN 100 MILES AWAY FROM ME AND SMOKE ALL YOU WANT. I DON'T WANT TO PULL ALL FANS IN THE HOUSE TO BLOW AT ME SO I CAN GET FRESH AIR.
She is old enough to take charge of majority of her life and decisions, so STOP INTERROGATING HER ON THE PHONE AS IF SHE JUST KILLED THE VIXEN, just because she is staying out overnight. NOT AS IF YOU WOULD DO THAT TO ME. MIGHT AS WELL GOD DAMN DO THE SAME THING TO ME.
You guys made up my life, the life that I longed for and loved all the while.
And never am I gonna give up anyone.
I yearn for changes at times, but it shall stay as dreams for now, and the present shall carry on.
As I try hard to relieve the financial burden in future, I might not have enough time for you all, but..
I still remember very clearly during my first day of House Com election, on the piece of paper where I ranked my priorities, the special one above studies, leisure, HC itself, and even family (at times). The position has never changed up till now.
It can get all so depressing when I bottle up the feelings, but I know there's ppl out there whom I can talk to.
FOC water is bad for the eyes, hence goodnight, in hope for dreaming of the change (do not ask) that I yearn for.