Sometimes, there are so many things that I think about, that I have such huge an urge to grab any paper and pen to write anything down.
I had tonnes of things that I wanted to type here just 30 secs ago, now it's a blank mind.
That's my problem recently - my memory span is getting short. I mean it.
During work especially, I walk to some place of course with an intention (usually to take something), but when I am there, I can't remember what I wanted to do. I only knew "I had to be here", but, "why?". It is happening everyday, nearly all the time. I don't know why this is getting into me.
Now considering the way my brain works, this post is gonna be of bits and pieces lying everywhere. Sylar won't want my brain for sure.
My back is still.. You know what I'm gonna say. So, in view of health and as age starts to get on me, I'm thinking of getting an insurance for myself. Pessimistically, it is just so that if I really have any big problem with my back, I still have the insurance you know.
I'm being owed 2 whole months of pay. Although I'm not hard on money now, it worries me to see the tuition fee for uni (especially when it is 4 years of course, not the 3 for biz -_-). I am not mustering enough courage to ask for my pay these past days, hopefully I have the courage tmr. I am feeling disgusted by the long column under 'Withdrawal' when I updated my bankbook.
Many people are making decisions between "NTU" or "NUS". I don't know it is happy or sad to say, that I don't have to make a big fuss about making this decision, because the latter most probably has been busier with handling other applications that are of better calibre and hence decided to ignore mine. Not as if the former has been very kind to me since they offered me my third choice, moreover after an interview.
Chinese Studies.
After I opened the letter, I woke up startled the next morning with the very first thought - I don't want to study. I was dreading of it, first thing in the morning. It was such a strong resentment against going back to
I've gotten used to working life. I'm not the only one feeling the same way.
I'm getting all so confused and aimless about what I want to achieve. My options widened more than anyone else, it wasn't as simple as NTU or NUS. It became "one year or not", "how about other institutes", how about this how about that. This decision belongs to me, that is why I did not talk to many people about it (I don't need or want anyone to affect my decision), that is why I told those whom I talked to, not to talk me out of anything or encourage me at all.
Having the deadline for acceptance moving in so closely, I can't seem to work my mind right anymore. I'm getting tired of thinking so much. I'm looking forward to hall life with those crazy peeps. I'm somehow curious about how far I can go in uni, no matter what I'm majoring.
My boss and lady boss are more anxious than me. Boss is supportive of me to pursue four years of 中国话; both of them have been looking up info on other institutes like SIM for me. I appreciate it very much, but somehow I just don't have the, interest.
Don't say anything ah Ng Jia Min.
I realised I'm comfortable about being stagnant, living day by day like this.
Now I'm beginning to accept the offer. Beginning to. 完蛋了，凄凄惨惨戚戚。
-12:57 AM. Interruption on the phone now. I was in such a great mood to blog. ROAR.-
1:15 AM. Back. Some old man called me on the phone. Damn noisy. I won't talk about it here. Ask me if you want to know. Depends on who you are too. Ahha.
Now I never stone like I used to. I might seem to be staring into blank space, but my mind is churning things over and over. I guess this partly accounts for me getting tired more easily nowadays.
My long awaited The Specialists is sold out. Damn.
Christina Aguilera's Back to Basics tour is coming to Singapore! Come drop me and Wentworth and Miller some cash from the sky.
Tired. I'll leave major updates [TJCO Concert, SSM's bday celebration at kbox] till next time.
No comments:
Post a Comment